Could it be that I am fooling myself? Wanting it so bad that I am oblivious to reality? Perhaps…
I just found out the a friend of mine has already gotten a divorce after 2 years of marriage and my god sister has gotten divorced after 5 years of marriage. That is such a huge reality blow…divorce does happen.
I have been pushing B to be the person I want him to be and pushing him to want to get married. Maybe he was right when he said that I should leave him and go find someone better. Its just so hard to do that, I love him so much it hurts. I cannot see my life without him, but when I think about it, I can’t see us as husband and wife.He’s a good person, just under motivated.
I really don’t think I could find someone who can accept me as I am ( I’m not a skinny-mini) AND is cool with me being a mother. At least not a good man who’s going somewhere in his life. From my experience, men without a lot of money/possessions treat their women a lot better than men who have the money/possessions.
I have tried to get to know some guys from school, but I only seem to attract the creepy annoying ones. Come on, how hard is it to find one decent man? One who is doing something with his life and has money, a vehicle AND is supporting himself on his own…one that isn’t a complete asshole.
Does this man exist? If so, please point me to him!
